what more?

what do you want from me?
what more could i say?
what more could i do?
if i had a time machine
i would go back and redo all of it
i would not let him near
i would be there for you
i would show you that i truly care about you
i would do it all in a heartbeat.

i did all i knew i could do
i did what i knew to be right
i did what i thought would save you

but instead i hurt you.
instead i birthed in you
hatred
hurt

i made you put up walls against anyone who dared love you
i made you misplace your anger, frustrations, and hurts
on anyone who dared to reach a hand out to you

blame me, cast all your hatred on me
separate yourself from me
if it's what will help you forget it all
if it's what will open your heart to love
do it all, but don't reject love in fear of being hurt.

if only, i could do it all over again
if only, i had the words to say
if only